Ok so today is day 1 of the, for lack of a better term, the 'new' me. I can do this. I repeat this over and over to myself. I can do this. See I told you. IT doesnt stop. Even when I want to forget about IT it's there. Taunting me. Laughing at me. IT scares me, IT actually causes me to tremble. By tremble I dont mean like "cold chill" tremble, I mean full out convulsions. Makes people stare kinda stuff. What is IT?, you ask. It is Maturity. Coming at me full force. I didnt think it would happen like this. But I can say that I have avoided it so long it's gonna take something drastic...so I've done this to myself. It still sucks. I'm really trying to figure this all out. When I quit a nice paying job with a position close to the top and a very good salary to be a stay at home mom my initial reaction was WOOHOO VACATION! That attitude has stuck with me. I don't have a job, I can do anything I want. But life is not a vacation. Reality has sunk in and I want to run screaming.
I can do this.
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